I never dared to write about this experience because the wave of decline in early 2025 really made me feel like escaping.

When I saw that blood-red -100% in my account, my first reaction was actually to think I was seeing things. It wasn't until later that I realized it wasn't a dream. It took away not only the numbers in my account but also my obsession with the bull market, my confidence in trading, and even my self-acceptance. What followed was endless self-doubt, then a slow loss of myself, sinking deeper and deeper, and even beginning to resent this market.

People are especially vulnerable at certain moments. In the two months after that, I lost love and my spiritual support. Luckily, this wasn't the first time, or it would really take a long time to get over it. Fortunately, life's tolerance for mistakes is much greater than I imagined.

A friend's words helped me find my direction again. I started traveling to some places, seeing mountains, the sea, and unfamiliar cities, gradually understanding what the meaning of life is. Actually, there's no need to care about what others think of you; the key is to live your own life well and to experience the joys and sorrows of life. No one can truly understand your inner world, and no one can be responsible for your life—only you can.

So I decided that in this life, I will be someone who listens more to my heart and follows my feelings more freely. Love what I love, and love those who are worth being loved.

The journey of my mind in the first half of the year has gone through countless twists and turns. Actually, life is like that—repeated ups and downs. But every fall, every loss, ultimately becomes the nourishment for your growth.